life after SPM

Asslamaualaikum and hi !!

wahh tak sangka. it has been 2 weeks sejak SPM dah habis and i couldn't accept the fact that there are few more days till 2016 and i am still being a nerdy potato. ha ! takpela aku redha je la. 

welp, i guess that masa travel pergi Teluk Batik haritu would be my last trip kot. Entahla. Muiz, Haziq and I ada buat plan nak backpacking dekat kl tapi rezeki takde and plan tu tak habis2 cancel T.T huhuh sedih gila. ini pun aku redha je la.

so the other alternative way for me to occupy my mind from thinking about made-up scenario which i am sure 99% of it won't happen is by drawing, painting and just..searching for ideas and inspirations for my upcoming artwork. I did a few drawings tho. Tapi semuanya cincai2 je. Dah tak macam dulu masa aku form 3 dah. Like, i draw pyhsically. But on the other hand, my soul is empty.

Nak tahu tak sebab kenapa ?

School and exams had hit me hard on the ass ya know. I mean like, every single day you have to study under pressure sebab takut sangat dengan exams, assingnments and all that. I studied so hard until i lose my time commitment in the things i like. I know, semuanya untuk masa depan aku jugak. Usaha yang aku buat selama ni pun, untuk kebaikan aku jugak.

But you know what, school has stolen my passion for the things i'm interested in and i hate it for that. Yang ni pun aku redha. Salah aku jugak. Tak reti nak manage masa en en.

cincai. and yes sampai sekarang lukisan ni tak siap
har har har..
i tried..tangan dia cacat i know grrr first mural siot !! tak sangka xD
i lost my sanity and my mind was out of control. aku geram sangat
then i took out my new paint brush n some old acrylics. oh yeah aku ade
lukis gambar ni masa form 3 so i decided to put it into a mural heheh. i know 
it doesn't seem fancy at all, but im still proud of myself *winks*

Plus, i've made a survey on pinterest and i found an interesting pop-culture illustration. It is a frankenstein wearing a pink hipester glasses. I decided to use this illustration for my next artwork. The thing is duit je tak cukup sekarang ni nak beli cat baru and in a very large quantity. Lukisan ni takdela besar sangat but yeah i think this plan might work. (idk yet we'll see)

Hmm lagi ape nak cerita. Ohhhhh! Abang Wan dah balik Malaysia a week ago and Sabtu haritu he visited us here. Damn :') i miss his warm hugs and his sense of humour. It was our very first met lepas 3 tahun tak jumpa :')

We watched movies, had pizzas. We watched Goosebumps and Kingsman. Ah, my kind of weekend with my favourite people in this world. 

*fangirling mode on*


I am freaking exaggerated by the clever twist of the spy movie format and they really came out with full of excitements. Tak rugi tengok. What makes me so addicting about this movie was their spectacular stunts and the dramatic area which made the film full of surprises and craving for more actions. Plus the HOT BRITISH BABES MALE ACTOR OHGOSH OHGOSH OHGOSH.






Kan? i told you it was addicting. Hahaha memang ah lepas tengok cerita ni lidah mula berbelit2 nak cakap macam British. I did memorize some of their dirty pick-up lines heheh. 

I think i'm gonna end this post. Looking forward to a better life, perspectives, ideas and new fandoms. Byebye xoxoxox

Teluk Batik: My Very First Venture without a Guardian

Hi and assalamualaikum

waddhuup babbeeess SPM sudah habis ! Alhamdulillah semuanya dah dipermudahkan. Everything went smooth and ease. Ok even tho semua paper tahun ni susah gila namati, ape2 pun aku bertawakal jela. Lagi lagi paper addmaths tu woi huhu.

Anyways, i guess this week wasn't bad after all. Em boleh la. Ade la hangout dengan member2 aku kt sini. We had mamak the night after SPM. And the next day pulak we played badminton at our nearby arena. It was fun, mate. Yeah im surely gonna miss all the joys and tears and all the sacrifices we had done in the midst of our battle for our final exams. Ya Allah rindu gila. Kelas tambahan, kelas malam, all the teachers at school, cikgu Koh (ah ni lagi rindu), school uniforms and the guy that i adore the most em.

Haih takpela. Life must move on. But really, i cant help it. It's just too painful when you realize that everything you cherish with people that you love for all these years has finally...have their own priorities and idk if those people gonna build a special palace for me in their minds..or probably just gonna forget me. 

Okey ! Enough with all the sadness mayyne. Man up ! huhuh

Plus, yesterday WAS AMAZING AND IT FELT LIKE IM ON THE SEVENTH HEAVEN AAHHH. I had the most estatic, wicked, unforgettable time indeed ! Just only the three of us, Latif ,Syazwan and I went on our very last minute trip to Teluk Batik. 

"Well sure aliah. It's just Teluk Batik no big deal man, there's nothing special going on there except just a pathetic oceans and crappy sands"

Oh damn shit you dont know what we have been through, you uncultured swine! The further i traveled, the wider my perspective was. Latif is very wise and familiar with all the roads. We traveled from the bus station idk where it is but it is nearby ACS school, to Mengelembu, Trono, Batu Gajah, Sri Iskandar, and lepas sampai Sri Iskandar we went into Manjung barula sampai ke Lumut. And semuanya took 3 hours bus ride with a ticket cost rm8.50 per body person. 

dalam bas whoop whoop. ini masa sebelum bas bertolak 

dah sampai Manjung. lepas makan kitorg solat zohor
 and i forgot what is the name of the mosque

Actually bus takde time2 macamni. And masa tu manade bus nak bawak passanger pergi Lumut lagi lagi hari Khamis. Latip ade cakap dengan sorang pakcik bus Perak Transit and he was willing to take us to Teluk Batik. Alhamdulillah may Allah bless you, pak cik :3

halamak selekeh tahap makkauhijau. pergi Lumut kena
bayar rm3 hehue

We arrived at Teluk Batik safe and sound :3 Sumpah weh aku tak tipu. It was my first time ever visiting there. Punyala perangai jakun macam orang tak pernah tengok pantai and yeah memang pun. Ive never seen such places like this for almost a year because of school and shitty exams. Huhuh im so grateful that these two guys made the top of my list as the first people who brought me there. Thank you, fams.

Aku tak mandi laut pun cuz i didnt bring my swimming suits. Lagipun, kalau aku mandi nanti rupa macam sealion kacukan hippo pulak euw. Aku just celup2 kaki kt laut and just enjoy the land breeze and chilly ocean. I burried my foot in the sands and also letting my skin burnt ah tu paling annoying skali T.T

Then we went for a walk across the beach. Hahaha takde pun matsalleh telanjang or pakai bikini ke ape. Semuanya orang2 Malaysia and that's good innit. We headed to the end of the beach. There was a small river heading towards the coast. Magnificent and overwhelming. I did know about those facts through books but it was lame. Tapi bila dah tengok depan mata, rasa terbuka fikiran aku like "ooohh macam tu ke rupa dia selama ni".

terjumpa batu. unique.

And then we went back the land. We ate ice-cream and bought air kelapa to quench our thirst. Pastu duduk2 sekejap and looked back of all the journey that we've been through. Rasa nyaman and sejuk je time tu. 

ais krim latip tinggal separuh, mine and wan's was legendary. ais krim 
roti and ais krim potong kacang merah yeaahh

Perrghh memang best la. Bau Latip dengan Wan macam algae. Bau kaki aku dah macam ikan pulak and im loving it ! Then diorang pun sambung mandi laut. Aku just duduk lepak-lepak saja biasa-biasa saja bawah pokok. Em kerusi lipat pun ada kena sewa wehhh hahahah rm2 shit xD

Lepas solat Asar, kitorang tunggu pak cik yang sama jugak. Yang bawak kitorang masa mula2 sampai kat Teluk Batik. 

Then after that, dah sampai kt bus station Manjung, terus naik bus lain and headed to Ipoh :') I felt sad over that time. But it was worth. Like finally you arrived at the destination all by yourself alhamdulillah. As usual. Kena bayar rm8.50 and dudukla dalam bus for 3 hours. I was asleep (em taktau la im petrified bila aku tidur pastu ternampak biji mata lol)

Pukul 8.30 pm, baru sampai Ipoh. Daaaaaa..

Okey sebenarnya our adventure didn't end there. Takde noktahnya lagi. WE TRAVELED ACROSS THE CITY. AHHH I JUST LOVE THE VIEW OF IPOH TOWN DURING THE NIGHT. Cantik sangat :"))) and totally out of this world !

Kitorang pergi KTM dulu. I swear to god first time pergi KTM waktu malam. 

idk what building is this BUT ISNT IT MAJESTIC ???!

sape lukis ni :3

Yup. It was thrilling. 

finally aku dapat amik gambar dengan pak cik oldtown !!
im your biggest fan and youve made me the most happiest girl alive! :D

nak tengok orang main bola. tapi masing2 perut rasa lapar.
so takpela heee

Penat cari tempat makan. Then Latip suggest kat kitorang pergi makan dekat Taman Permainan Kanak2 (apesal do nama mcmtu). 

our desert was ais kacang abc. heaven nohh. satu mangkuk abc kongsi
3 orang. aaahhhh best

Extras: masa time balik, aku pi bayar dekat kaunter and then toleh ke depan ternampak sorang muka mamat ni *.* His face looks exactly just like him eeeeppppppp! I thought it was him terkejut bhaii. And i was half blinded sebab spec habis kena masuk air hujan. But it wasnt him afterall. Orang lain. Gaya dia sama xD The beanie, the big sweater he wore and those glasses just *.* My crush's figure chubby2 sikit and mamat ni kurus2 but adorable. I stared at him blankly and seeing him smiling and his temple crinkled into starburst was just....captivating <3 

We called Latip's father and that's it. Tamat. Our journey ended in front of 7 eleven. Waited for almost half an hour for his father to pick us up. 

Sepanjang aku hidup, aku tak pernah rasa macam ni lagi. Sepanjang perjalanan nak pergi Teluk Batik ni macam2 dugaan aku kena hadap. Dugaan peluh, panas, rasa tak selesa and ujian nafsu asyik nak kunyah nak makan je. And one more thing that i learned is, kena sabar dengan perangai2 member. Tapi setakat ni semua okay. Takde nak cari pasal ke ape. Cuma, bila member takde duit or minta brape kupang, kau kena ikhlas bagi.

Memang memorable betul. Tired af but it was all worth it.

thank you :)

Addicted to a Memory


it's 5 in the morning. Niat nak belajar, tapi tak belajar2 jugak. 

The mosquitoes are hovering around me in such numbers that tiny noise of their rubbing wings sounded cacophonous.

And the mix of feelings of nostalgia and missing someone grew stronger inside me.

Memories of our last day of school were still vivid.

Indeed, one of the most distinctive features was...the smiles carved on each of everyone's faces. Burst laughing joyfully without bothering anyone else.

It's really painful, recalling back throughout the journey god had put me in, never really thought that these people would bring so much meaningful in this life. 

I'm losing my insanity trying to get over this. Getting depressed for almost 3 days.

but im fucking thankful for everything. The new people that i came across in every part of my life and some people that i loss during in the search of my identity and that's okay.

"i wish photographs were physical spaces, like tunnels;
that you could crawl inside them and go back"

And sometimes, it's not the person you miss. 
It's the feelings and moments you had with them.

You gave me a forever within the numbered days and im grateful. Thank you.

Pierce The Veil is my guilty pleasures :>

i love u and the others moreeee


ok saje nak singgah sini jap. The other day when i opened my blogger's website tetiba keluar iklan Knor Sup Ayam KEJADAH ?? DAFUQ HAHAHAHAHAHAH

f^ndek diorang ni nak advertise iklan agak2 la sikit. well pasni kalau keluar iklan lagi kena refresh baru boleh dengar lagu dia hahaha fyou ads

And yea, it took me an hour to get this new shitty playlist done eeeeeppppp!

ok ptv is my new guilty pleasures really ! I am mesmerized by Vic Fuentes's voice AAAAAAAAAHH. I am having a mental breakdown in these days. Bukan sebab SPM ke ape. It's just that...i'm gonna miss all the school's memory possessions. I didnt expect that the last day of school would become so...momentous and significant :') yup it sure was. Tbh, when i feel down and out i always pretend that Vic is singing to me ohmygod *.* 

Then i decided to seek for ptv's Collide With The Sky. I think it's beautiful and im freaking addicting to it. Is it bad if i refer Vic Fuentes as bae :3 yeah i know im a new fan here but can we all just get along and enjoy the wonderful music they produced ? 

And as my mind is healing from bullshits, i've came across with new musics. Old-school, jazz, undergrounds, nu-metal, post-hardcore and many more. Lepas spm nanti nak download lagu bebanyak lah.

and in my opinion, ptv made this version out of bruno's song is a thousand times waaayyyyy better ! Vic's voice is beautiful ya Allah hELp. I'll slit yo throat if yo fcuking disagree with it :))))

Adios, fams. Nanti bila spm habis i'll tell you more about the great time my friends and I had ok *sobs

hannah is lucky to hve u :>

My Kind Of Friday Night

Assalamualaikum waddhup..

Ayy lama tak bukak blog ni hahah. Rindu nak cakap sensorang and that's why im here. Plus, i had adding some weirdly new desires in my wishlist and also had changed another new playlist. Oh dear the song is really breathtaking and yeah, it's a soundtrack from a soul-stirring movie that i just recently watched. "Begin Again". Seriously this movie made me feel mesmerized by all the thoughts about being in relationships heheh

That man is brilliant. The movie is firing. And i am igniting, like a 4th of July. I wish i had someone who understands the little pleasures about life and you know, have that kind of wanderlust spirit. Willing to show me around the world and wouldn't care less about the future. Time stood still but both of minds are in the midst of venturing. Omg *_*

Besides this movie, I also watched a couple of other action movies such as The Guest and 22 Jump Street. Oh i wish opah had installed the recording box thingy so that i could watch them over and over ! 

i wish licking you wuz legal em abam hawt 

Hahaha it's hilarious of thinking that how could i managed to survive without a handphone XD ? My handphone died month ago so i could access my twitter and tumblr through this laptop once for a while because schools and studies. Dah tak bergayut lama2 macam dulu and yeah im doing just fine. But my eyes are getting worse ! And the haze make it even more deteriorate amg. Well pasrah je la TTvTT

Hm ape lagi nak cerita. Oh esok form 5 students will be attending to a dinner night party and im not going. Malas gila do. Dah la you have to meet the same people from the same school pulak tu. I wanna meet new people, new cultures and new perspective ! Just like the friendly people i met from Tempatan Fest and the ACS students. Lain la kalau dinner night tu utk 5ST je cuz it'd be much more fun hanging out with your favs rather than those jerks from the other classes.

Plus im too lazy to get dressed and be pretty and id rather stay at home, be ugly which im happy with it and enjoy good movies and documentaries yeahh. Lagipun esok mama balik so i decided to meet her.

i wish i could crawl inside that cell and be with u, u hot piece of ass

Oh. SPM lagi seminggu. Hm taknak la cakap panjang lebar nanti kang stress hahah. I'll just do my best and leave the rest to Allah wru wruu :))

And lepas SPM macam2 gila plan aku nak buat. Wuuu. Okay we'll get to that part later, fams. Probably this would be the last entry for this month. InsyaAllah nanti lepas SPM i will update this blog non stop for 24/7 heheh jk. (maybe i will)

Later mates xoxox

Senior Year: Karnival Koko SMKRS


Heyy :) Ah, I just got back from school and now dah alang2 tengah ada leisure waktu2 petang mcmni, I decided to write something here walaupun aku takde mood 'cuz I've been thinking way too much in these days (we'll get to that later ok)

7th August and 8th August. These two dates are still back in my mind, and dua tarikh itu la aku rasa seronok, freedom, takde stress. And yang paling seronok dapat spend time dengan orang yang aku sayang. It was Cocurriculum Carnival which was held by my school and the thing that made me feel overwhelmed was dakdak 5km1 and 5t1/2 memey bertungkus lumus nak siapkan Rumah Hantu ngn Rumah Sesat. Sanggup stayback sampai petang hahahaha seriously aku salute korang! Aku rasa kalau takde semangat korang tu, takdenya rumah hantu hahahah

Anyways, I had a great time. Paling banyak masa aku spend time was with Sarah. Memang 'period pain' ah kalau meroyan dengan budak ni haihh kuat menganjing betul 

Oh, lupa nak bagitau. I got involved in Latip's group. Entah macam mana aku tetiba boleh termasuk dalam group tu hahahah maybe sebab I helped them tulis menu tu kot. Em takpela. Rasa dah macam family bila dah sama2 buat kerja. Masa tengah siap2 preparing for our corner everyone gave their whole support from one to another and it was delightful indeed. I miss all the funs and laughs that we had, really. And aku paling rindu Shazwan yg susah payah datang sini and I had such a wonderful conversation with him. Haihh rindu.

Hahahah I still couldn't believe yang aku dgn Sarah pemenang pertama for the Escape House. PEMENANG PERTAMA WEHHH TAK SANGKA DOOOO AHAHHAHA victory bhaiiii kitorang tak habis2 kecoh pasal hadiah kitorang dapat tu. Oh gosh they should have put our face depan2 muka pintu Escape House tu and let people know how awesome we are. I noticed that semua orang yg masuk Escape House macam tak menang2 je hahahahha wuuuuuu Kidd, bitch we did it auwwwwmmmm. I have the urge to 'tonyoh' our prizes dekat muka semua orang especially my crush hehehheheheeh


Ah, speaking about crush *blushing* well he looked good. He always does. He's so bad and he does it so well ahhhhh i cant hasjahjaskajsskdklal. Dia tegur aku lepas keluar dari Escape House. He asked "Best rumah sesat?". Ya Allah. I didn't wanna fall for him, really I do. But at some point when he smiled, I blew it. Then aku jawab, "hahaha best la jugak". Then masa lepak dok kt longkang while waiting for the line at Haunted House, he walked past by me and smiled. Ahha thanks a lot man, cibs now look what have you done. Susah nak move on doh. Hm i think we'll get to that part later. 

mood terus jadi happy ehehheheheheheheh pastu
nampak dia jalan dengan awek lain aku pun berHUHUHUHUHUUH

Haaa after that Sarah, Muba and I went for a roller blade. Best gila siaa ! And maybe that would be my very first and the last try of rollerblading. Waktu2 aku nak rollerblading la Farhan nak datang haiihh dah la muka kau flawless gojes aku time tu dah macam taik dalam kepanasan. Hhahaha meeting him was contented and awkward la jugak sebab tetiba je muncul dah la masa tu kali ke-6 terjatuh haihhhh. Luck was on Sarah's side tho. Baru je pusing2 dah pandai main em. Muba pulak...HAHAHHAHAHA tak habis2 terjatuh macam buah nangka tergolek. Pastu masa balik complain ponggong lebar sebab jatuh banyak kali HAHAHHHAHAH xD

Habis muka sunburn T.T

Overall, I feel much better after the carnival. I created a memory and I hope it lasts forever . Selalunya conclusion aku panjang2 kan. Tapi yang ni punya aku nak buat pendek. Idk. I have a mix of feeling of nostalgia and petrified. Terrified if the people you knew changed or maybe i'm the one who will be forgotten. 

Haraplah tak.

3.34 am thoughts, sorta


Well harini aku saje nak post about random stuffs here 'cuz I got nothing else to do. Plus, im tryna to clear off the cobwebs in my mind after berserabut study addmaths topic differentiation. K, nak nanges jap T.T

Ah, after studying addmaths tadi saje la nak baca novel yang Eima baru bagi kt aku entitled "Bau Semangat Anak Muda". Dear Nami Cobb Nobbler, you have my full salution cuz your novel gives me the inspiration to have more deep admiration towards grunge, punk rock and old school music. And also, i learnt lots of new satanists word but in a good-mannered form kehkehekekeekehekh

Hah, masa tengah syok baca novel tu..(i was listening to radio at the same time) tetiba tracks fm main lagu MCR-I Dont Love You. Habis hilang mood aku sekarang ni. Like, reminiscing back to the good old stuffs that had once brought the best of you, and then those people became memories. Tbh, even though I've been introduced my own self to harcore music this lately and dah lupakan band2 yg lama, MCR still makes me feel like home. Dah lama dah aku tinggal music diorang sebenarnya, tapi entahla. Bila terdengar je lagu band tu, or when someone mentions about them, I became fragile and sorrowful. Rindu.

im grateful for the little infinities that you have gave
thank you :')

Hahahah I should've write a post about raya, tapi malasla aku. Yeah, my heart was shattered and delighted at the same time during the first of Syawal. I was shattered 'cuz Ramadhan was over, dah takde pergi terawih, dah takde suara imam n bilal yg aku suka tu, dah takde jumpa makcik2 and budak2 kt masjid, setan dah kena lepas, bau tandas lelaki kt sekolah pun bau mcm setan sebab dah sebulan diorang tak merokok dalam tandas, diri aku ni dah susah nak stayback kt sekolah alasan sebab lapar dahaga and all that, and ketenangan jiwa tu makin lenyap. Oh, i even had a huge fight with my mom during the first raya (and this, i hate to talk about it cuz i absolutely dont wanna give a single damn bout it anymore). And yeah, i was delighted because of the joy and happiness of seeing nasi impit, kuah lontong, opah's super duper chicken curry and kuih raya magically appeared on dining table at 7.30 in the morning :)

Oh, lupa nak bagitau. Bring Me The Horizon dah keluar album baru, "That's The Spirit". Ohmygod i remembered how my reaction was, i was like "OMFG THIS THIS THIS THIS!!!! ERHAMGAWDDD !!!" i was screaming till my lungs out like a seal giving birth to a farm equipment (k XD). Em but then, right after i read their interviews from all over the websites...rasa macam...k this is not what i expected..................Their genre sorta doesn't represent what it should be; metalcore, hardcore, metal. Their new album sorta more to rock, i guess (?). Mula2 tu rasa excited gila bila dengar "The Happy Song", but it turned out to be different. Haiihh damn aku ni memang emotional tak bertempat. Pasal lagu pun nak pikir memanjang T.T Tbh, i prefer their old albums..The Suicide Season, There Is A Hell Believe Me Ive Ate Seen it and Sempiternal. K lagi la rasa nak nanges skrg ni. 

But that's okay tho, cuz my queen Hannah Pixie and Oliver Sykes had finally tying their knot <3 They both are covered with vividly colourful tattoos, animal lover, vegetarians, have an extending affection towars humanity and have the same belief; athiest. Ohmygod ohmygod #relationship goals <3


Throwback Ramadhan

Assalamualaikum :3

Ya Allahhhhhhh I can't believe that we are at the end of holy Ramadhan. Ramadhan HAS finally come to its end and i'm miserably insecured. Frankly, this month is one of the best months I had in my life. Before this, I have always felt anxious, depressed, stressed out and all the anchors of heartache that had been pulling me into an abyss. But I never knew that I would fall in love with this Ramadhan. Tak pernah rasa this kind of peaceful and tranquility sebelum ni. I'm so grateful that god gave me the chance for seeking the goods in bads and surrounding myself with great people :')

I'll never forget my first day iftar, which I had at Masjid Tanjung Rambutan and that was the time Muba and I had finished our tuition class. And i'll never forget Latip, Aiman and their "half half" punchline xD And i still remember my very first terawih at masjid nearby my house and i knew i was deeply infatuated with the imam's and bilal's voices every time they recite their dua's. And i can remember the good times I had with Muiz and Latip, we stayed back at school and doing some revision for our upcoming test and i'll always remember Latip's advices he gave me that Allah will always have a better plan for us as long as we believe in his fate, have faith and never give up on it (goddamn i love u so much). 

Thank you Dinie for introducing me to this band, muahh cikedd :*

And also, i'll never forget  the time Muba, Sarah, Muiz, Latip and I hangout after the school over. Ya Allah ! Wish I could record the moment cuz all of us were hysterically laughing till our ass out on Latip's hillarious pickuplines xD Latip iz da queen of all mother of sassy-ness auuwmm (ayyyye congratz,man you're on my "Aliah's Fav Baeritto" list <3 )
Oh, oh. I remembered the school held an iftar and terawih and I remember Sarah's struggle moment when she wore jubah. Omg she was cute af guurrllll you slay dat jubah dangggg *.* No matter how many girls wearing a bright, colouful dress or baju kurung which may could turn many guys on, to me Sarah was wayyyy more attractive than those dem bitches. *bows* And I also remember that night after the event was over and Muba took me a long ride and idk, aku rasa aman gila masa tu. Thank you so much, Muba :3

And also, I would like to appreciate my mom for maki hamun me during the second day of Ramadhan. She's the best and I couldn't describe it. Kalau la mama tak maki hamun dekat aliah, maybe I wouldn't struggling.. stayback kt sekolah and then qiam tengah2 malam. Thank you mama cuz you're the first person (always will be) who pointed out my weaknesses and how fucktard my behaviour was and how fucked up my ppt result. Thanks, mom.

Overall, this is kinda a dedication post to those who I survived with. Aku berharap sangat that I feel as same as the way I feel during this month. Hahahah entahla tetiba pulak rasa takut. Im scared kalau tetiba aku rasa depressed balik mcm dulu and i don't want that to happen. And baru aku sedar, it's good to be alone. But it's better to be with someone who at least fill your life with bits of happiness and a state contentments. I like to be alone sometimes, but I'm not fancy at being lonely that's all.



Ayyye ssup ! Ohmygod I can't believe that Ramadhan is coming to its end wehhh sedih gila. To be honest, this Ramadhan is the most greatest Ramadhan of all. Masa dulu dulu I had always nagging over my exhaustion, and then pikir nak bukak puasa, like overall "puasa tapi tak puasa" hah macam tu TTwTT And it feels like time flies so fast. I don't know how to describe this feeling and don't know how to handle with this sadness anymore. Sedih do. Alhamdulillah cuz i've been doing good deeds. Dulu perangai cm haram terawih langsung tak pergi. Tapi tahun ni..boleh almost like, twice a week or three times a week camtu la.

Gahh entah la dapat ke tak jumpa Ramadhan tahun depan. Haihh kot kot belum lagi raya Allah dah tarik nyawa aku T.T well in that case, im ready to face it i guess.

Speaking of raya... ah tapayah la cerita. Probably raya tahun ni tak bermakna. Im sick of people kept tweeting bout raya and all those stuffs gth pls. Ever since Abang Jiji and Abang Wan pergi America, everyhting has changed. Drastically. That's why aku tak suka raya. Tbh the only thing I see happiness during Eid is the blessings and the joys of having breakfast at 7 am tu je heheh :3

And yeah, maybe I'm gonna celebrate this Eid with less jollification and more focusing on my studies. SPM nak dekat wehh ;_; I don't wanna brag or being overly confident with myself, but I think I ken du dis ayyye insyaAllah :3 Cuma physic jela. Aku dah taktau nak study physic macam mana lagi. Belajar physic kt sekolah lembab namatey and dah la syllabus form 4 tak sempat habis. Then cikgu expect kitorang dah belajar kt tuition ayy memang la kan hahahahah :"D

They said physic diorang dah ke laut. welp aku punya
dah mashuk kubur adios

Well rasanya my "nagging about happening shits and stuffs" mood dah habis. Malam ni or bila bila nanti I wanna post the occasions that happened during this month of holy Ramadhan <3 I have to post it, nanti bila dah tua tua kerepot I could reminiscing back the good old days :')) Bye bye xoxox

Floria Festival 2015 :D


Olllooo everyone ! I'm currently at Putrajaya and I had lots of enjoyment for the past 2 days. Ya Allah, i'm so grateful for all the pleasures and leisure that I've possessed. Seriously, I couldn't describe my happiness in the form of words ohgosh ohgosh. But let the pictures and moments describe them :3

Day 1: Flower Attack

Our first day of Floria Festival was during the evening. Memang tempat tu ramai gila crowd ! Tapi tak sesak pun, but i love seeing the family came. Diorang bawak atuk nenek and they look cute sitting on the wheelchair, just like my Opah eheheh. Our first location we headed was Spring and Winter Garden. Oh My Glab !! Aunt Linda has such a great idea on elaborating for summer and winter flowers. They were all stunning, macam aunt Linda :3 (Aunt Linda is my aunt and she's the head director for the fest btw) 

Tempat dia macam educational sikit. They had two seperated rooms which each one of them will show you specific information about winter and spring season. My favourite room was the winter garden. The finale of the show was the room started snowing..WITH REAL ICE AGAGAGAGAGGA! When the ice melts they seem kinda a bubbly soap and that's how it looks on top of everyone's head hahahaha.

After the shows over, we had our dinner nearby the Putrajaya lakeside. It was marvellous, sebab location dekat2 dengan Putrajaya bridge. I felt like a fat dwarf and amazed by the mighty piece of architecture danngggg rasa dah macam duduk dekat Chicago teeeheeeeehe *.*

After dinner Diyanah and I wandering around the place. Ade fire performance and a group of tradition band entertaining all of the people there. The atmosphere was delightful, semua orang sporting kt sane and they didn't mind at all seeing me joget macam babun.^^

Wonderland// The Land Of Oo. Sejuk je rasa bila duduk 
atas gigantic gumball

Then kitorang pergi satu tempat ni apetah nama dia. They sold many art and crafts and honestly it was my favourite place of all heheh.

Flower craft competition. Flower and art enthusiast
from all parts of the world <3


Bila pergi Floria waktu malam tak nampak sangat bunga2 dia semua. Tapi kalau pergi waktu pepagi...:'') It looks like paradise. Macam taman syurga eceeeehh. They categorized the flowers and gardens with certain state, artists and country. Ada Taman Melaka, Taman Terengganu..the best part was...The Hobitton pun ada ! egeggeghhsuhsksdl Wandering around with my dearest venture enthusiast mon cherri was joyful :) Plus, the cold climate rasa macam jenjalan dekat luar negara.

Behind the scene of The Maze Runner

Hi, we visited Ireland.

Salam from Chicago

Then we flew to UK visiting orang tua Hobbit

not necessarily excited with yo existance, go away

Overall, 3 days away from the sick fcuking town gives me the spirit to restart my daily living routine. And also, this experience made me realize to appreciate the simple pleasure of every existance. It was fun. Peer pressure takde. Takpayah pikir pasal sekolah (ade la sikit2 tu hehehe). Takpayah pikir pasal crush yang perangai mcm bastard tu. Takde pikir pasal kawan2 aku yang fake namati and many more :) oh i wish i could stay here and be on my own world as long as i could, but i can't get away from the tight grip of reality and that's sucks. But that's okay tho. Lagi setahun je TTwTT

I'll post and update some more. Nak pergi breakfast jap. Later xoxoxo :*