Unilife

our first and unofficial class photo yaww


Assalamualaikum !

HI !!!!!! Ayyyyy it feels good that i'm finally back into this blogging !! Ya Allah leganya sebab selama ni rasa macam takde masa nak update blog walaupun tak buat apa2 hehehe ><

Alhamdulillah aku bersyukur sangat yang akhirnya aku dapat sambung belajar juga. Ya, anak-anak. I went into an architecture school and ever since that, it changed my whole life. Architecture school has changed my personality(a little bit), my drawing and writing style, my thinking and my view of perspective on everything ! It really does. 

jamuan raya Alam Bina. bukan seni bina ya.
seni bina tunggu doluuu


For the whole 5 months feels like 50 years living in the sea. Macam-macam cabaran aku hadap. Maki hamun lecturer. Perangai classmate yang macam kepala bana semua. Perangai manusia yang berperangai anjenk. Manusia yang tak ingat member dan tak tolong member. Manusia yang baik hati suka tolong-menolong (may Allah bless you). Dan lecturer berperangai yang agak pilih kasih. Yes. Universiti bukan sekolah. Suka atau tak, kau kena hadap semua ni. Sometimes, aku rasa depressed and feels like the end of the world. Dari situlah aku belajar untuk jadi kuat. The whole mind-healing process takes time you know. 

On the other hand, the best thing about architecture school is you got to meet new people ! Sebelum ni, i'm in my own circle. Tak jumpa orang luaq sangat sebab perangai anti-social aku ni(im still an anti-social kehkeh). Since i've been into this field, i met new cultures such as an architect, senior2 aku yang hebat, lecturer from other universities such as UM and also budak2 dari kos lain pun aku buat kawan during the orientation week. 

Another interesting thing i like about this field is TRAVELLING IS EXTREMELY REQUIRED FOR US. YES DUDES! Nak jadi dakdak cekadak archi kena banyak travel. Bukannya hang travel berhuhaha pastu blah camtu. Dok gitu. Kita travel and learn. Travel mencari ilmu. Travel dan cari kekuatan dan kelemahan diri sendiri. Bak kata lecturer aku cakap, "Awak semua kena banyak explore" haa lagu gitu. 

MATRA MATRA, MATRA MATRA KAMI DATANG~
MATRA MATRA, MATRA MATRA KAMI DATANG!!
my first and ever architectural workshop and exhibition. reuniting all architecture
students from the whole nation !


I may look happy from the outside.
My instagram posts may define me as "wahh aliah dah masuk U"
This blog post might make people think as "oh aliah dah ada life sekrang, dah buat banyak kawan baru blablabla"

Ye, aku happy. Happy dan bersyukur sebab aku dapat sambung belajar dan banyak ilmu dan pengalaman yang aku dapat sepanjang semester 1.
Ye, aku dah ada life baru, kawan baru.
But people aren't walking in my fucking shoe. Depa takkan faham yang life aku ni sangat struggle dan sangat mencabar. Lagi2 dalam bidang ni, which require lots of money and commitment on projects and stuffs.

Haih..bila depa nak faham? Nope, they won't understand unless they take this field. 

halloween-themed dinner night. haaaa ni barulah
jamuan dakdak archi !


Okay, ini baru intro ye. Banyak pengalaman aku nak cerita kat sini. Maybe i wont write 100% of it, but i'll try make it as simple as possible. Rakluu. Salam jumaat semua. See ya'll on the other side kehkeh


Long Car Rides: Kuala and Taiping

Assalamualaikum...

Hai. Doakan aku ye sebab Sabtu ni aku ada interview dekat UTM. Esok dah kena bertolak ke KL. Ya Allah, i'm petrified, nervous and excited at the same time (tang mana kamu nk excited aliah T.T). I'll give my best and leave the rest to Allah. Itu je. Dah aku taknak cerita memanjang pasal ni. Nervous bhaii.

Ok ok. In a meanwhile, enjoy these pictures of my friends and I visiting and one-day travelling with Muiz's car. Until these days aku still belek2 handphone bukan sebab ape. Belek2 and tengok balik gambar2 masa ni and masa Hari Anugerah. And also gambar2 kitorang masa sebelum SPM. Serious ah, it's 2016 and aku still takle move on haih :')

Nah. 




Unexpected journey. Our plan was going to wander around the pekan. Suddenly we took the abnormal pave. Masuk highway terus pergi Kuala Kangsar and Taiping. Yes. I remembered the car musics we had. The endulating of unknown hills are evergreen plus the thumping rytheme of the radio makes me feel all nostalgic until now. As usual, i will always be the one getting roasted by Sarah and Muba idk why D: Rindu ah. Banyak gila video aku rakam sepanjang perjalanan tu em.


First stop. Galeri Sultan Azlan Shah. I learned a lot in here but sadly the visitors can't take picture inside since the posessions are royally authentic. The main important is we shall know that our Sultan rocks ! He had achieved so many recognition from all parts of the world including Her Majesty, The Queen Of England omg. Seriously, he owe as many credentials as I remember such as Doktor Falsafah Undang-undang and Doktor Kesusasteraan. Try to imagine learning laws and understanding them through books. Damn thick books! Yela, 10th century kot manada internet and technology. Ni aku belajar addmaths 2 tahun tak pass2 lagi adoi.

Furthermore, the gallery also add up his huge collection of ancient currencies, his dining table sets, his glory collections of book of laws (serious tebal gila), the royal attires, very sophisticated baby cradle, neatly sewed graduation hats and robes plus the royal family portrait. Hats off to you, mate. Daulat Tuanku !

magnificence, great beauty. it was an honour to be here,sire.
i learned a lot and looking forward to be here for the next trip

babes. SHOUT OUT TO MUIZ sebab sudi bawak kitorang
jalan-jalan dengan kereta kau !! thanks dude!! goodluck sambung belajar 
dekat KL nanti wehh!! dont forget us here ;'D

Next stop. Ke Taiping. Ni pun amik masa yang lama jugak. As we reached to Taiping, as they called as the heritage city, memang seronok ! It was divine and I love the elements and the historic buildings that has been left by the British army. It was a cloudy day and starring to the silhoutte of primeval structures with a bit of twisted modern on it was pleasurable and admirable. Jauh perjalanan, luas pemandangan. My mind opened broadly at this very moment.

aku takde gambar pekan taiping sebab semuanya rakam.
but do enjoy this picture of Taiping Prison. creepy do masa stop dekat
redlight someone was stalking over from the guard house

kt atas tingkap tu haa orang tu stalk. still cant get the image of his straight face
outta my mind tho 

breezy and cloudy. bestnyaa kalau dpt hiking bukit sana hewhew

Gerak lu. Lepastu dah sampai ke Zoo Taiping, which has been requested by Muba. Hmm aku taktau la berbaloi ke tak pergi zoo sana, with the adult ticket costed rm17 each. The zoo wasn't as cheerish as it was before. In my days when i was like 12 (kali terakhir pergi), the zoo was really outgoing and lively. But in these days, it seemed completely abandon and quite shrubbery as well. Aku taktau la time tu takde activity meriah ke ape. As long Muba happy, I pun happy hiks.

look who's happy with her FIRST REAL encounter with
giraffes. eksited beno kamu ni

yang ni pulak takut zirafah datang dekat hahahaha

lepastu gerak pergi tengok kangaroo (omg so cute!!).
dalam beberapa minit kemudian, hujan turun. nasib tak lebat T.T 
*ZOOM MUKA MUBA*


Every place I visit selama aku hidup 18 tahun ni, semuanya tinggal kenangan manis. Tapi tempat ni tinggalkan aku kenangan pahit manis ! THERE WAS A FREAKING HUGE BULL TRYNA MAKE ME AS ITS TARGET. AND I WAS LIKE "WHUUTT". AND MY FRIENDS WAS LIKE "ALIAH DIA NAK KEJAR BEG MERAH KAU TU !!". AND I WAS LIKE "!?!?!?!?!". "WEH ALIAH LAGI KAU LARI LAGI DIA TUNJUK TANDUK WEH". AND I WAS LIKE "!!!!!!".

You see? Memang nightmare betul ! Rasa nak nangis tapi aku tergelak sepanjang jalan nak cari keluar dari zoo tu. Haihh good times.

Kk gerak lu. Lepas keluar dari zoo tu, kitorang pergi Muzium Taiping. More knowledge ayy. The museum have 2 floors. Ground floor exhibits our traditional culture elements from all of our different races. They also exhibit varieties of animal kingdom and species, to the old methods of how this state could get their tin ores. Ahh lagi best belajar macam ni daripada belajar dalam buku sejarah ! 



sebenarnya adat nak kahwin ni bukannya menyusahkan pun.
mentaliti orang kita yang masalah tu je. nak tokok tambah dari yang asal.
 haih melayu2


Tingkat 2 pulak cerita pasal etnik and suku kaum orang asli. It exhibits how the natives work and live with their daily routine. Damn it was so metal back then and now. Like, you wanna cook? Well bitch be better get your ass up and go dig rocks and minerals and carve the fuck out of it. Semuanya handmade tools wehh. Bersyukur la aku hidup zaman teknologi ni.

naik tingkat 2. masuk2 je ternampak ni. i could tell that
this is a picture of my elementary school friends. semua muka
nokharam and i hate them all. 
(ok sori teringat masa sekolah rendah dlu member macam tahi)

i died fab. no no this is real not an artifact ok

macam2 labu sayong. that includes me TvT


Ok. Lepastu pergi luar. There were old rides and transportation. Jet world war II pun ade jugak !





Lepastu balik ke Ipoh :')
Nak nangis time nak balik tu. Rasa nak nangis jugak sebab perut lapar time tu. I couldn't describe how happy I was sebab dapat travel dengan member aku yang lepasni takkan boleh jumpa dah. Guys, and to the guys yang kita kawan kt sekolah, aku sayang korang semua. Eventho kita tak pernah contact ke ape, aku tetap sayang korang *peluk ketat ketat*

Nanti bila ada masa nanti aku nak buat dedication post banyak2 untuk member aku ye :')) 

Byee.



muka semua selekeh, serabai, muka lapar, muka penat.
but it was all worth. love u guys!!! and also to those other people yang aku tak
pergi travel lagi, love u guys as well ! 















Hari Anugerah and H

Assalamualaikum..

Cool-breezy wind hit into my face as I sat down in the school's garden.
Then I saw you glanced right next beside me, and am very privilleged by the smirk you gave as I smiled to you.

Never, ever in my mind expecting you to come to this event.

You looked great. Always have. With those creamy-white slacks longing up upon your torso, which really suits with your formal shirt. I am fond by your spectacles, the bestest thing whenever I get to see your face. And I'm absolutely in love with your new haircut.

You sat behind me in the hall. I heard you art-talked with your friends. And every word, every single word came out of your mouth. They made me feel like the way music does. Every of it seems to turn into love song. I love it how you pour all of your expression and passion to others. 

The best thing was, when you walked on that stage with the black blazer and how exquisite the look on your face when you received those prices. I'm so damn proud of you.

____________________________________________________________

Aku bangga gila bila nampak kau naik atas pentas.
Dengar cerita yang kau akan interview esok.
I love it the way you hold your trophy, and the look on your face was totally one in a million.
I'm infatuated by your husky voice whenever you speak.
The way you walk, to the way you talk.
Serious ah aku bangga dengan kau.

Cuma. Bila aku dah ada peluang, dapat jumpa kau harini...I still didn't have the guts to congratulate you. At least a 'hi' would be nice. Today was the prove that God gave me the chance to at least have a small talk with you and to make the confession that i've been holding on for so long.

Tapi aku yang bodoh. Bodoh dan pengecut dan penakut sebab aku tak tegur kau langsung. Bodoh sebab tak pakai peluang tadi.

Sampai sekarang aku rasa menyesal. I don't know how could I keep up with this cuz I couldn't bare the weight that has been on my shoulders for so many years. Aku takut yang aku takkan dapat jumpa kau lepas ni. I'm petrified that I might keep this feeling away from you for the rest of my life.

Bila aku confess, aku ketepikan semua rejection, acceptence, kau nak maki aku ke apa semua tu. Yang penting aku dah luahkan tu je. Falling in love sucks. It's harder when I have to wake up everyday and gotta to force myself carry this load on my chest. Susah.

Tapi, aku redha. Lepas ni, bila aku dah move on and madly in love with someone else, aku akan bagitau orang tu cepat2 yang aku sayangkan dia. Aku nak ubah perangai pengecut aku ni kalau boleh.

Still, you will always be first of everything tho.

bukan desperate. cuma luahan semata lelz.



adduuhh nak sedih2. meh sini aku payung gambar tadi.
ni pun aku bangga ngn korang jugak hahaha. (zoom muka aku aqil 
ngn zul zzzzz tido)




Aliah The Mess-Maker, strikes again !

Assalamulaikum..

Alhamdulillah semuanya dah dipermudahkan. I passed the JPJ's test a month ago and received my driver's liscence, I did some paintings, I learned to cook, I encountered amazing fandom materials, Pierce The Veil is going to release a new album "Misadventures" real soon (!!!!!! im so excited for this), I will always be an Arctic Monkey's fan no matter what, opah is healing and in the process of recovery and... I have some announcement to make here..

Good news. I received an offer from matriculation college and also...an interview for diploma in architecture in UTM ! Alhamdulillah ya Allah. And currently i am in the middle of preparing some ideas and inspirations for the interview course. Haihh tarikh interview tak keluar lagi BUT IM NERVOUS AS HELL RN. Hahaha takpela. Like my mom said, buat yang terbaik. I'm not really into architecture and stuffs but yah gotta at least make the effort tho. Tbh, i'm still frusturated that I didn't get the interview for TESL. Sad and depressing as well tapi nak buat cmmne kan. Rezeki takdak. And it's not the end of the world yet.

Plus, the reason I write here in this middle of the night is because...i feel that life is sorta confusing. It's like a minute ago you made an agreement to take this course, then second later you're just like wanna giving up and push it away after reality hit you in the ass. 



Earlier ago my mind was distracted by the thought of taking diploma in pharmacy. I made a research of it and i found out that I actually don't fit the amount of qualification that they require. I also found out that pharmacy is the second most toughess subject to pass after medic. Furthermore, they need at least B for chemistry in SPM. Right after I read all these nonsense(but most of them are true) shits, RASA DOWN GILA and im mad. Im really really mad.

I'm mad because i didn't gave my best for chemistry test.
I'm mad because pharmacy isn't something that I thought it would fit me.
I'm mad because...mom is always right. I should've listen to her ages ago. I should've just take the architecture course in the UPU form. I should've known and be aware of her the moment she asked, "Are you sure about this, Aliah?"

Ya Allah. 
Sekarang ni aku cuma redha dan bertawakal. Rasa nak nangis ada. Rasa nak give up pun ada. Memang betul la. Nak Allah berkatkan hidup kita, jaga solat dan jangan derhaka pada mak. Right now, i'm anxious of what will happen 3 months from now. I am fucking my own future right now. My filthy arrogant descision has made me selfish for all time.

Aku menyesal. Tapi dah nak buat cmmne dah. Upu dah submit and sekarang aku kena terima seadanya. Aku yakin sgt2 semuanya ada hikmah. Yang aku mampu cuma berdoa supaya Allah beri yg terbaik.  

i'm sorry ma, for not listening you. 

P/S: forgive me for the previous post. it was the lamest breakdown and i promise it wont happen again. and sorry for the grammar and spelling error. malas nak betulkan.

extras: congrats sebab kau dapat form 6 and temuduga seni lukis. i'm so proud of you. even if you're not mine, i will always look out for you tho. goodluck for making a good descision. goodluck finding new soulmate. if anything i hate makes your soul grow beautifully, then i'm happy for you. aku harap hati aku tabah supaya aku dapat confess dekat kau sebelum aku sambung belajar nnti. cuz i dont know if i have the strength to go further without telling you how much i like you.



Da SPM results

*re-edit post*

Assalamualaikum..

Ayyo. Actually I have the urge to write here since the day after SPM result but I postpone it until now. Haa sekarang baru ada chance nak cecite kt sini

First of all, alhamdulillah. My SPM result was okay :') I didn't really expect to get 5As for it cuz I was paranoid about the whole marks scheme and graph thingy. Yang paling aku terkezut kan..subjek2 yang aku tak focus and study last2 minute dapat A. Killer science subject yang aku dah lama gila focus several months before SPM tak dapat A. OMG im sobbing rn. I got As for my BM BI MATHS HISTORY and ISLAMIC EDU. AddMaths CHEM PHYS dapat C (chemistry C+ ehem) BIO pulak B+. Alhamdulillah asalkan ada A :')




Tapi yela kan. Aku paling down pasal subject biology and chemistry tu la. I worked extremely hard for those two subjects and my aim was to get an A for those two hm. Takpela rezeki takde or maybe jawapan aku cincai kot. 

Paling best masa amik result was dapat jumpa member2 aku ya Allah :') Akhirnya dapat jugak lepas rindu kt diorang. Dah comey comey semuanya. Okay furthermore IM SO DAMN FUCKING PROUD WITH EACH AND EVERY ONE OF THEM. Aku bangga gila dengan semua kawan2 aku sebab they managed to survive throughout the year for as long as I could remember. Dan yang paling aku bangga sekali sebab diorang semua TAK PERNAH GIVE UP. They didn't give up on Allah's faith and still working their best as they could. Lads im proud of you guys ! You guys are doing great and hold on okay bcuz things will get better alrite :)


babes im proud of y'all. te amo ❤



After that Farah's dad brought us, Ainin Dahlia Sarah Muba and I celebrating our SPM's result. We hung out at JJ and watched a movie. The London Has Fallen. Goddamn it was epic LONG LIVE MIKE BENNIGAN. 

Hm apelagi eh. Oohh. Hehe. The highlight of the day was I got to see my crush and it has been a while <3 Idk aku bukannya nak syok sendiri ke ape. He stood a few inches away from me and I actually smiled at him. And he gave me the warmest, sweetest smile of all. Taktau la dia senyum kt aku ke or senyum sorang2 tapi ape salahnya nak syiok sendri aite :> Oh lawd he was fine as hell and I could feel his good vibes radiating towards me. For the first time I saw him during that day, he was as if dripping like a saturated sunrise. And that smile just...blew my mind away and it was overwhelming

Hahahahha okay dah dah mula la nak berjiwang bagai. AAAAhhhh i just realized something. Aku still takboleh nak move on gila xD He has a new girlfriend now hm kali ke berapa ntah aku taktau. Pelik aku ni, he's an asshole and a jerk but I still look at him as if he's the one who put the stars up at the horizon. Dah elok2 aku move on tetiba tak boleh move on. It's okay. Lama2 nanti the feelings will vanish as soon as I pursue my studies.

Speaking bout studies. Aku dah siap daftar semua and i'm suddenly not feeling confident with my choices as I used to. Aku harap semua yang aku rancang ni berjalan dengan lancar. Tapi apa2 pun, Allah's plan is better and cant deny with it. 

Okay. I'll end my post here. Bye2 for now.

p/s: happy birthdayyy toooo meeeeeeeeemememmememe :DD

4 days left

Assalamualaikum..

Well, lagi beberapa hari lagi aku nak amik result SPM 2015 and also test dengan jpj. Haihh. Macam2 aku tgh pikir sekarang ni. Pasal result, test jpj nanti, masa depan, duit..macam2 hal lagi la. 

Entahla. Aku taktau nak cakap ape dah sekarang ni. I came here just to let out all of my thoughts and my feelings that has been messing up my mind today.

I have been following numerous of talented people on instagram. An illustrator, a graffti artist, a mural drawer and also a tattoo artist. As I scrolling through their feeds and posts I felt so amazed by their gifted aptitude and I have so much respect for them. And somehow, I wanted to become like them one day. I have always wanted to become a street artist and sending my messages to the nation in my own damn way with own damn art. Bukan sebab nak famous, tapi sebab aku geram tengok dinding putih bersih yg ade kt Malaysia ni hahaha. And yeah aku nak jugak to be the first person who extend the art of banksy to the whole city.

Tapi, ye la kan. I dont have the basic skills or even enough art supply to start it. I still remember the first time I get all excited about acrylics and various of paint brushes. Aku rindu nak lukis potrait. Aku rindu nak illustrate doodle. Ohmygodness i'm having the urge to art-talk with someone right now. 



only in Kinokuniya. Aaahhhhh !! menyesal tak
beli masa dok kl hritu !



Haa. Aku pun dah siap mohon dekat UPU. Dalam senarai tu, aku tak pilih course seni langsung. Aku nak. Memang nak sangat2. Hmm tapi bila pikir2 balik, i'm not an artistic person at all. I'm just a person who appreciates the beauty of artwork and seeking for more of them. Yeah in other words, it is like a form of obsession. Art isn't something that should be pretty, it is something that should make you feel. As far as i know, art has make me feel being free from all the world's heaviness.

So the priorities that i've chose were diploma in pharmacy, science, TESL, and engineering. Based on the SPM result nanti la. Aku harap sangat aku dapat pharmacy. Aaamiin.

I'm gonna end my post here. Aku doakan semua calon2 spm 2015 dapat keputusan yang terbaik and cemerlang. Minta doa banyak2 supaya Allah tabahkan hati masa amik result nanti. Apa2 keputusan yang kita dapat, just redha and mungkin ada hikmah disebaliknya. Goodluck ;)


Bros And Mounts



Assalamualaikum..

Hello guys :) wahh it has been a while. Yeah it is. I'm grand in these days. Finally god gave me the oppurtunity to have my own 'The Great Perhaps' escapades. There are so many stories I would like to share here since I have encountered vast occasions for this week and also the previous week. But let me tell ya the most thrilling adventure that I had yesterday with my lads.

Lets get started now aite.

Yesterday was estatic and overwhelming ! Oh my lawwddd the lads and I had been planning this for a month (make it 2 months) and FINALLY WE'VE REACHED THE SUMMIT OF MOUNT KLEDANG WHOOP WHOOP. I didn't expect Ajad and Najmi would join this adrenaline-rushing climb with us.

Yeah, i know. It's just Mount Kledang and probably the pros would consider this as 'hiking for noobs'. Yeah pal i am noob but I owe the pleasures so back off before I hit you with frozen turkey in your face, you uncultured protein princess. Ni nak marah ni hahahaha okok.



There are two ways for us to get to the peak. We have a wide walks from gentle rambles to adventure treks. Our gentle walks was simply on tar road while our adventure treks started when we saw paths on the mountains. Mula2 tu jalan atas tar and then we took 2 or 3 hikes on the mountain trails.


we're almost there



Actually I didn't really planned that we should hike on the mountain trails because it was seemingly terrifying and quite tough since the dry-soft soils undulated the hiking spot. Agak mencabar you know, lagi2 untuk orang noob macam aku ni. But I, we all did or had to took the risk sebab Ajad was being all snoobish and challenged my nerves and I probably heard him calling me a chicken under his breath. Lagi la rasa tercabar hahahah

you aint so tough now, is you ?? aku pun boleh
panjat la blah la kau ajad ;P

Rasa nak nangis pun ade la jugak bila panjat ye la, sebab first time kan. I almost stuck my foot during the climb on the narrow trail. BUT YEAH IT WAS ALL WORTH IT YO. As we reached the summit, we witnessed the immense and spacious of the small town of Mengelembu. I swear it was the most beautiful sceenary that i've ever seen for this new year wehhh. It was all worth it really. I couldn't explain the serenity into words y'all should come here and witness them with your own eyessss !




It took us about 3 hours to reach our destination. Sebenarnya kitorang nak sambung lagi sampai ke puncak yang ada RTM station thingys. But Najmi's shoe soles had worn out and detached so our journey ended there and decided to go back to the starting point. Takpe, lain kali Naj akan beli kasut baru and we're gonna make it to da top !! That's gonna be on my bucket-list for sure !

hahahahhahahah!!! part ni paling lawak !!! nak turun bukit amik
masa 1 jam je. we escalated down the hill like maniacs bc the
gravity pulled us down really hard. ya Allah i still have the video of this and
couldn't stop watching it tho xD


pengsan dah ajad


Please do enjoy our descent pictures here :D

ajad memang hantu selfie. he selfies
even when we're on the dangerous pit of our lives. despite, dia selfie
tak lupa ajak member skali. how impressive


selekeh. i feel that im the undiscovered supermodel. 

we matkool 


Okay gambar last..

THANK YOU GUYYSSS :DD








nostalgic nuance

Assalamualaikum and good mornin' !

Danngg I had a remarkable times in these past few days. Really. Last week Muba, Sarah and I hang out for the very first time in year 2016. Yeah the meeting went official tho. Hahaha hang out kt pasar malam je. Cuma this year different sikit. I dont know what or which part was but it felt slightly different than last year. Aku pun taktau apa dia. 

While we hanging out, Muba ajak pergi Parade on that Saturday. Just to sell our old, worn out reference books that are no longer needed which has been cluttered our houses for several years. Well, I managed to get rm15 for 8 books TvT. Lels last2 duit tu lenyap jugak sebab pakai untuk tambang bas, beli makanan semua tu. Ahmagah.

On that Saturday tu jugak, Abang Wan and Mommy came visiting here :')) Dayyum Abang Wan makin hensem nohh. Abang Wan highlighted a touch of his front hair, had his head trimmed on the both sides, and he have also worked out. In that evening we had good pizzas, sharing stories and chill.

Malam lepas maghrib tu, Abang Syafiq pulak datang melawat :')) We had dinner together and at that moment, I thought this situation, the gatherings, the prosperities, the laughs that we used to had 8 years ago will never appear. Goddamn i feel all nostalgic already. Watching them devoured those fried chicken, sambal sotong associated with stuffed cabbage and eggs while sharing stories about Abang Wan's first shotgun in navy, Abang Syafiq's life and his jokes made my mind float in the midst of ecstasy. It was precious sebab dah lama gila tak berkumpul macam ni.




At 10.30 pm Abang Wan, Abang Syafiq and I hang out at the porch. They had cigars and we talked, and talked and talked till we didnt realize it was already 1.30 am. We spoke about politics, jokes and memes, global warming, about life, dirty talks and all that. These guys even gave me a tricky life hacks bila sambung belajar masuk universiti nanti. They are wise. Hahaha macam2 la life hacks aku dapat. Oh, they even talked about their relationships. Abang Wan lepas balik KL nanti ada date dengan sorang chinese girl. They'll be going on ice skating. Abang Syafiq pulak cuma pikir nak settle down with his long-term girlfriend. I hope everything went well, bros. Plus, Abang Syafiq even talked about how pathetic kids in these generation, how absurd they performing moshes in gigs, how sick are kids in these days treating schools, teacher and other people. Quite offended but I couldnt agree more. Salute !

And then we hang out at McDonald's for a couple of minutes(abang syafiq bawak kereta macam orang gila --'). Had a large curly fries and cokes. Then we headed straight to Ipoh city and had some street burger. We wandered around gerbang malam and went into this ranggi store. Kawan Abang Syafiq punya. Fuhh best gila. Jual macam2 benda rare kt situ. Later that night, kitorang balik rumah and that's it. 2.30 am sampai rumah dah. 

I felt momentous during that day. Tak sangka do. They are the first who brought me lepak2 sampai tengah2 pagi. They are the first elderly seniors who I hang out with. And they're the first for being all open-minded and straight forward when preach, even kalau kutuk menghina diri masing2 still tak amik hati hahahah. I will always love both of them.




can't we go back to page one and do it all over again ?

Heres To Another Year


ape nak jadi dengan playlist blog ni entahlanak. biarjela //cries//
Assalamualaikum...

Surprise, surprise. Happy 2016, lads! Hahaha i should be writing this post 2 days ago. Yeah, i was going to. But then i ended up staying in the bathroom for 30 minutes and i supposed that i've been celebrating my entire after-party new year in the toilet then. After that i posted this incredible horse sitting on top of gigantic blue ball on twitter and I thought that it would be an epic first tweet for year 2016. No regrets.

So. I guess that my new year went well so far. I met Muba in the evening of 1st January. Dah 2 minggu tak jumpa dia kot. We talked and talked and I already missed her. I hope everything goes well and I pray that her family is strong enough and being able to face the challenges after what had happened to their beloved Atah, ill lying in the hospital bed. I felt so sorry for them tho and hopefully that Atah is recovered as soon as possible.

Oh, i almost forgot. The typical new year resolution list. Nah i have nothing to say here. I'm looking forward for an official driver's liscence and furthering my studies to diploma that's all. And of course, i'm in the search for The Great Perhaps. I'm not sure what does that mean cuz I literally picked that quote from Green's Looking For Alaska novel. But it sounds wonderful which i probably guessing it may leads to the definition of the unknown event. Just like in the novel. Yeahhh. I'm looking forward to that as well. Manatau tetiba aku dapat travel around the world for free, or maybe a new adventure is around the corner..macam aku pergi Kellie's Castle and Teluk Batik haritu. Random je pergi hahaha. Or manatau terjumpa jodoh ke hehehehokdah

mekaceh abam2 semua sebab sudi bawak aku jenjalan.
lepasni kita travel lagi okei


And another more thing is that I hope i become a better person. I bitch people, and people will bitch me back. But for this time, i'm gonna bitch them in a good-mannered way. And also, i gotta love myself more and chill and watch all the things come and go. Like holding back the river.

Bila pikir2 balik, rasa kelakar la jugak tahun 2015. I think 2015 was an okay year for me. Macam2 cabaran aku tempuh. Feelings of regret, sebab tak belajar physic sampai habis and sampai sekarang aku still confuse pasal chapter heat and light and radioactive. Feeling disappointed and guilty, because i didn't put enough effort during school exams and made my opah n mama upset. Feeling in love, affectionate toward my friends during our fighting and killing for SPM. Also falling in love over the wrong person, hahaha ini paling lawak i've been obsessed over this guy for years and it's time for letting this awful,hideous grip go. Falling for him was worth it. And last but not least, feeling grateful. I'm grateful for every moment that i spent and each breath that I took in.


kenapa semua menghilang


Ohgosh. The most important, by that i mean SIGNIFICANT thing of all the significance is that my favourite american babes Pierce The Veil are going to release NEW ALBUM AGAGGAGAGAGGAGAGAG I CANT WAIT. Sumpah siaa tak sabar gila (ok im done cuz pasal benda ni aku dah banyak menganjing kt twitter dah). 2016 is gonna be lushes and fabulous with these guys :D ya Allah aku harapla diorang buat tour kat sini :')

Welp rasanya ini je kot aku nak cerita, eventho sebenarnya banyak lagi aku nak share kt sini. Maybe next time. And i will be adding some throwback moments for the next update heheh. xoxoxo byee

Cheers to sublimes souls and existence, lads ! *clings wine glass*